This is still a process, after all...

Quite this journey this is... It is safe to say, I learn something new about myself every day that goes by. I have done well over the past few months tracking everything I have consumed in an effort to not only remain accountable, but also to make sure I am fueling myself well for my runs. Well as time went on, suddenly tracking my food was passe'... In the grand scheme, I have not been doing poorly. But I have not been doing as well as I should be in my Self Care Plan.

The lesson to be learned here? There is no "-ed" in my vocabulary when it comes to the words "reform" and "rehabilitate". I am an obese person. My efforts over the past couple of years may not really reflect it, but that is who I am. While I have worked very hard to lose, at this time, about 120 pounds, I know just how quickly it can all slip away. Granted, not at one sitting, nor during one weekend.

I am a creature of habit, whether the habits are good or otherwise. When I am making good decisions in my life, I can catch all kinds of momentum on this joyous ride of mine. When mistakes are made, I know it, and as so many of us tend to do, defeat myself over and over again for these mistakes.

The key to maintaining one's Self-Care Plan is NOT to win every single battle with which we are faced. There are so many challenges that lie ahead, whether they are eating questions during social situations or lying in bed trying to decide whether get up a little earlier to get in that much needed exercise. These battles are everywhere and will never cease.

No, the key to success is not being perfect or even trying to be perfect. Rather my goal is to win more battles than I lose. Life is life. It is not clear-cut, nor does it always go the way I would like. If it did, I would be able to control what I eat, drink, and do at all times. Generally, I do my best to accomplish that very thing. Other times, it is easier said than done.

Why the diatribe, I have no idea... Jut clearing out the proverbial desk drawer in my mind, I guess. It's funny, even when you think you have the drawer completely cleaned out, there are always little crevices remaining that are often difficult to reach and get into.

Back to reality... After a week or two of some lower leg issues, I am feeling healthy and strong. I may, depending on how things go, give another shot to a fourth running day this week. Staying off the dreadmill is crucial for me. I would sooner have my finger nails plucked off one at a time than be caught dead on the ol' hamster wheel as much as I was on there for a while.

I am going to be working hard on this blog to get it up to date with things that are important to me, so stay tuned...

Be well.